Have you ever watched Intervention? The show about addicts who get a choice to go to rehab?..Good.I figured some have at least a little idea about the show. Well I was watching it and they had a herion addict on there. Reminds me of my twin sis who I do not talk to because the life she has choosen. Yeaa Im sure some think I am a horrible person, thats okay, I think the same at times. I always say sometimes you have to be selfish. You have to take care of you and look after you sometimes.. soooo thats what I am trying to do. I dont want that life or negative atmosphere around. When she decides to go on her month long soberity while her bf is in jail, Im around even though it makes it hurt more ever time she relapses. Anyways, back to the show, they always show how the person is now and constantly shows them doing their drug of choice,then....they show them as a kid and how they were and it runs into where it all went wrong. I cant figure out where it went wrong with my sister. I have an idea of when the habit started and why but I dont know what pushed her to that point. I cant lie, it bothers me, a lot. I like studying people and their behavior and knowing things but its the one thing I cant figure out. I fear I may never know and that bothers me, it bothers me as much as knowing if she doesnt get clean she'll be dead.But I think Im learning to accept it.We dont talk as it is but soon, if we wanted to talk, she wont be there
. Every time I start having nightmares I get a call about some other shit shes gotten into and the nightmares have started again. You can hope for the best but always prepare for the worst.
